` a wilting soul `

` a wilting soul `

I've tried to write this pain away
to evict it from my head, it seems the more I try, the more my soul has decided it's goin' die.

After everything that my tired soul has been through, after all this time, being lost in the dark, torn apart from its woes, it still strives to deprive that spirit of mine from the peace it deserves...

There's no escaping it, despising it, wanting that feeling to go away, so cold, so dark, it seems like it's just my fate; there it stays, it won't leave me in peace, sucking life into a faded consummation...

Enduring, not burgeoning, but persevered, my soul has become silent. That silence only speaks to those afflictions that propagate my anxieties...

I've tried, believe me, I have tried, but, It's all that past despair, the nothingness that numbs, grinds that soul that has perished inside of me...

That soul of mine deciding it's just goin' to wilt away and die, and I don't know why...

-sjbeaux
Art - Eduardo Bustos Segovia

- thoughts -

My soul toils, weary from the anxieties of endeavoring to belong to this world...

- Inspiration -

Once I could imagine my soul, I could imagine my death. When I imagined my death, my soul died. This I remember clearly.

My body persisted
Not thrived but persisted
Why I do not know

- Louise Glück's "Echoes"

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