` Don't wanna be a Burden `

` Don't wanna be a Burden `

My soul’s been a burden to me since I don't know when, these emotional chains that shackle my brain are of my own doing, soaking those tears of the past in the waters of my sanctity...

Forever pushing the boundaries of life, finally paying the price for those improprieties, suffering in my own dark realities, fearing that judgment, labeling my guilt as a burden to my own insecurities...

That burden from my past, I want to just bury it with the shame that I carry around inside, something that needs to be finally put to rest, before it devours me....

That feeling of guilt, that shame, the hurt of my pain, the decay of my brain, it feeds that hideous remorse...

Just don't wanna carry that load anymore, just don't wanna battle those demons anymore - just don't wanna be a burden anymore...

- thoughts -

Battling so many things in our stride, we become entangled in chaos in this life journey. Like a lame creature, burdened, emotionally disquieted, I carry those burdens alone, feeling guilt, shame, and the hurt of my pain.

-sjbeaux
Art - Sajja Sajjakul
" Burden "

- inspiration -

"My heaviest burden is a past I can't change and nightmares that I don't know how to forgive and forget."

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