'A Letter to a Brother'

Brother,

I would love to say, "Hope all is well," that would be the appropriate  words to an admired brother. However, given our history, it would be an ambiguous portrayal of my pure fervor and sentiments for your well-being.

Understand this letter is intended to put closure on what we both have tolerated over the past fifty years. It is my hope you can understand the lack of empathy I have towards our problematic relationship.

I don't know, maybe it's because of all the times you were so arrogant in your beliefs that the firstborn is far more superior to their siblings.

I don't know, maybe it's that time that you took a psychology class in college and felt it necessary to tinker with your younger brothers tender young mind with your psychological babble bull shit.

I don't know, maybe it was that time you introduced your younger brother to alcohol and drugs before he was even aware of the dangers; oh, by the way, I still fight the afflictions of addiction. 

I don't know, maybe it was that time I joined the military
was home on furlough,  instead of being proud of my achievement and success, you told me the military was a " parasite on society," hence calling me the same. 

I don't know, maybe at family holiday gatherings, your alcohol consumption and narcissistic personality always ended in our dear father breaking up our arguments.

For sure, it was that time I drove over 1000 miles to attend our fathers funeral, when it came time for me to pay my final respects; you rushed the casket closed, urging the procession on to the cemetery before I had a chance to tell my father how much I loved and will miss him.

I don't know, maybe the list of my hatred towards you is just too long to articulate in this brief letter, or perhaps it just doesn't matter at this point in our lives.

Yes, maybe I shouldn't hold so much contempt for you in your old age; perhaps I should show some compassion for an aging narcissistic old man.

 In the end, I know it does not matter, for i know you're a vile person who doesn't deserve my compassion or love.

Regards, 

Your Younger Brother
✍sjbeaux

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